rainbows...sunshine...and ♥ skies

nasasanay na akong palaging busy. at nasasanay na rin akong kulang ang tulog. nasasanay na rin akong pumetiks hanggang 10.30 ng gabi tapos dun pa lang magsisimula gumawa ng trabaho. grabe...buhay CRAMMER. hahaha.

grabe sobrang distracted ako sa internet at sa tv. magawi lang ako sa facebook, plurk, tumblr and TWITTER (my favorite lately). haha. hay. may gamot ba para makapagfocus? gamot para sumipag?

wala pa ring panalo ang UP sa UAAP. 0-2 na, okay lang 0-2 din naman ang dlsu. haha. pero sa huwebes sila ang magkalaban..sooo...0-3 na kami, 1-2 na sila. hahahaha. good job, 0-14 ftw! hahahaha (sarcastic).

panalo ang Team Pilipinas kanina sa Kazakhstan sa Jones Cup. yey! mabuti naman, nilampaso tayo ng Jordan nung sabado eh. haha.

champion na ang SMB sa PBA. tama prediction ko. pero mukhang benta yung laro, ewan ko ba. sa bagay, kebs naman si tandang cojuangco dun. pareho naman niyang team yon, win-win situation. tsss...mayayaman talaga.

Commercial model na raw si nanay dionisia. hayup! kung siya pwede, lalo pala ako. tae yan.

balik GMA7 na raw si cristine reyes. (walang utang na loob, pinasikat ka ng abscbn sa eva fonda tas babalik ka sa gma7). tapos inaway daw niya si Heart dahil kay dennis trillo. tsss...lalaki lang yan. (sa bagay ang hot kasi ni dennis. haha)

manonood ako ng And I Love You So. excited na ako! talaga. trailer pa lang umiiyak na ako paano pa pag sa sinehan na. hahahah. ang saya.

may nalaman ako..sikretong malupet pa sa ngayon., Diyos ko po, i-enlighten niyo sila to make the right decision.

ang taba ko. hay. gusto kong pumayat katulad ni bea alonzo. hay. :(

ayan...random stuffs of the week. wala lang. haha. Module time.

okay. napanaginipan ko siya kagabi. talagang nagdidischarge na ako ng memories. hahaha.

grabe lang, yung epekto na kanonood ko ng The Wedding. hanggang panaginip ko. anu ba yan.

oh well, discharging memories is fun. haha

affected ako sa the wedding. hahahaha. imbis na module ang iniintindi ko. hahahaha.

KASI NAMAN. bihira na lang ang mga lalaking tulad ni marlon (zanjoe marudo)! gwapo, masipag, may pangarap sa buhay, marunong magmahal, loyal...tapos gagaguhin lang? c'mon. ang tanga lang ni candice (anne curtis)!

sabi ko sa inyo affected ako eh. hahahaha.

okay anne, FOCUS NA! di na pwede magcram.

I am really not looking forward to this week. My spirits are low upon entering this week and I'm not really sure why. maybe because I have too many thing still undone and the things that I should have worked on and should have succeeded on for the past days/weeks did not turn out the way I wanted them to be, It's sad. I hate failure.

hay. If only I could find motivation.inspiration to do things right and with revived energy, I think I can make anything possible.

POLSC199 and KAPPP matters are stressing me out. I dunno why I have subjected myself to this fate. (haha ...ang OA). I envy my batchmates who are taking up 199 under a different prof...why o why do I have to be under sir f? naghahanap ata ako ng sakit sa katawan (at sakit sa confidence level ko). Bakit ang hirap maghikayat ng aplikante? shet. nakakaasar! hay :(

honestly, i need something or someone to make me happy or to make me feel like everything's okay even if I have so much to do or so much to think about.

hay nako..ang drama!

okay natuwa ako kasama sa mythical team si macmac cardona. ngayon ko lang nalaman! haha:) he didn't win MVP but what the heck! he's in the mythical team,.:)

i think i need to study more. especially for 199. grabe lang, bumababa self-esteem ko sa mga critique ni sir F. hay.

KAPPP matters...tapos na ang quiz bee. okay naman ang quiz bee fun! though medyo nalugi kami dun dahil onti lang ang participants. sana maging successful ang remaining activities namin for the anniv month. atsaka nappressure ako! kailangan ko pang magsipag for applicants. hay. ang sad :(

and yeah, ang manhid mo dude. hindi mo pa ba halata? dios mio. ewan ko na lang. a thought came to me when Pam told me this "would you want that thing to happen again with this boy?". Pam...i dunno...I don't want that to happen again..but what can I do. di ba. hay. :(

benta eh. hahahahaha.

SUPER TIRED! waaaahhh..

went to UP today to see sir baylon but i wasn't able to catch him in his class. darn. i guess, I'll just email him or something. tae naman kasi eh, cinancel ko naman siya sa crs bakit nasa class list pa niya ako. asar.

I also went to the rummage sale of kappp in KNL. muntikan mapaaway kay manong na bumili ng 2nd hand lacoste shoes na original...for P10?!?! tangina lang. maniwala ako sa kanyang nagbayad siya ng P40. duda ako sa caracas ng mukha nun. after that, the fun and tiring part. went around UP with JB and Mia to take pictures for the photo quiz bee on tuesday. katuwa lang kasi para akong nagfield trip sa UP. haha:)

graaaabeee...i have to do my module2 na. and I have to read for POLSC183 and for my econ alburo exam. but I am super tired. 2 gabing magkasunod na akong nakakatulog sa sobrang pagod, habang nanonood pa ng tayong dalawa at the wedding kaya di ko natatapos. haha.

yesterday pala was KAPPP's 9th anniv. yey! hehe. we had the Grand Pakain. daming tao (pero i think mas blockbuster yung last year). was supposed to have KAPPP dinner but we were full na with the left over food and many people had to go. ako rin pagod na so umuwi na lang ako. hay.

okay anne, you have to focus na. focus!

hay ang sama ng araw na to. nothing's going right.

bakit ganito ngayon? may mali ba? pakiramdam ko may iba, may nagbago. ayoko na, back to reality na lang ulit ako. 

:(

2weeks of going to school is starting to stress me out. I'm not feeling well for the past days. maybe because of lack of sleep or adjustment to school life again or just because I have to much to do for acads and org.

I've been too busy to update. nakakatamad na minsan magupdate eh. I just open plurk and facebook and my mail and also twitter everytime i go online. just to keep/maintain my social networks (and karma. haha).

this is gonna be a long weekend for me filled with acad stuff. first module for Polsc199 to be passed on tuesday. haven't started yet. shet...etona...eto na ang mga dreaded modules. grabe sabi ko nga maipasa ko lang tong sem na ito sobrang OKAY NA AKO! winiwish kong maging maayos na lang tong sem na to.

on other stuff...i am really confused now. sa totoo lang...ano nga ba tayo? hmmm...

21 years of living in this world ain't bad at all. thank you to all the people who greeted me on my 21st birthday (and are still greeting me..haha).

Birthday inuman with KAPPPips last night at cantina. fun!:) haha. more friday club bondings sana. hehe.

then later special birthday dinner with my familya nd close friends. see you guys!:)

Thank you God for life. hehe :)

I think it's fairly manageable. ayoko lang ng super long breaks. anyone free ng 10-1pm ng TTh? hehe:)

photoshoot earlier for KAPPP at pam's place in el pueblo. kitaan in trinoma first. pero bago yon, sobrang bad experience ko sa mrt3. wow talaga, naligaw ako. hahahaha. anyway.

ang fun kanina! super namiss ko KAPPP people. cam-whoring and bonding galore. after the photoshoot, we went to yellow cab trinoma to celebrate mia's birthday. happy birthday mia!:) ang saya, super naenjoy ko talaga yung gabi. haha. then went home at around 9pm.

natapos ko na yung Boys over Flowers!:) ang ganda niya. SUPER! sa 3 version, eto yung pinakanaenjoy ko. next yung meteor garden. and serious kasi ng meteor eh tas ang bitin ng hana yori dango. hahaha. kinilig me. hahaha. i want my own Gu Jun Pyo. haha.

anyway...dahil super pagod me sa photoshoot at sa bday celeb ni mia, I think i have to sleep. haha. goodnight world. :)

Super sleepy day. ulan pa nang ulan. wow. angs arap matulog or manood ng dvd maghapon. but then, tama ba namang agawan ako sa panonood ng Boys over Flowers ng magulang ko?! damn dapat di ko na sila pinanood eh, naaliw bigla. hahaha. anyway.

After 3 days of coming to UP, FINALLY enrolled na ako! wow talaga sa tagal. bwiset yung pagpila ko diyan sa PI100. inabot ako ng 3 araw para lang mai-encode yung nai-prerog ko na sa prof. haaaay nako! this class better be worth it. anyway. okay lang. may allowance naman kapag pumapasok and I get to spend time with my friends. Spent almost the whole day with polsci friends. wala eh, APSM na talaga ako, honorary member. hahaha. and yeah, I officially sealed by 1st sem fate with Sir F in his POLSC199 class. damn..sana di ko pagsisihan to. at lalong sana kayanin ko!

after enrolling, I went to econ for the ANC Leadership Forum. I was supposed to go to the derma first but good thing I went early kasi ang dami nang tao agad! and ang galing ng backer ko eh, inna! hahahaha. nakapasok kami sa loob so I was able to watch Erap, Loren, BF and Binay live with the morillo family (inna, ate hannah, atine,kuya pao) and allen. hahaha. nice experience, really. kahit nabbwiset ako sa pagkatrapo ni loren at sa antics ni erap. sitcom eh, laughtrip lang talaga pag si erap na. hahaha. Inna was seen on tv! nagtanong siya, haha tagal ng exposure:) i'm one proud friend. haha.

After that, they dropped me off at the gym. It's sis Ainna's despedida and she'll be leaving for singapore within this month. aww...I'll miss sis. and so, we celebrated her despedida at Manors in eastwood. sobrang pagod na ako at antok  tas pumarty pa. haha. pero okay lang. I really had fun with ainna, dennis, brainy, niko, kim and martin and his friend. i miss bonding with my gym barkada. sayang wala sina jaime and migs and jones. but really I enjoyed. after that super gutom so nagearly breakfast kami, haha., then inuwi na ako ni dennis at around 5am. wow talaga. haha.

now, super ulan, super lamig, cancelled ang execom meeting..ang sarap lang matulog! haha. and yeah, extended vacation kami pasukan na sa june16 for the registration and dahil daw sa DOH announcement on AH1N1. di ko alam kung good news yon o bad news eh. haha.

this is the first time I am enrolling in UP for 2days already. and I'm not yet done! so hello UP once again tomorrow. Are they really sure classes will start on the 9th?!?! because, mahn, the enlistment this year is just shit hell. add to that the typhoon, servers always down and sudden electricity shut down. grrr...i hate this.

Boys over Flowers keeps me sane, thank God! I've been watching it on DVD for 2 days already. many "aaawwww" moments. haha. I want my own Gu Jun Pyo! haha.

I am desperate in losing weight. I NEED to lose weight. i hate how i look now. it's disgusting. arrghh..*mood swings...terrible*

and yeah...today is just not my day. seems like everything is going wrong. is it because it's...nevermind. haha. hay. today is just too emotional for me.

i hope tomorrow would be better.

and yeah...again...one thought from BoF...the idea of soulmates. i do not really believe in this. but lately, I think I'm beginning to believe in it. hmm.

start of june.

mangangalahati na pala ang taon. wow. pag hunyo kasi ay start ng mga bagong bagay sa akin. syempre tatanda na ulit ako sa 20. tapos pasukan na ulit.

tanginuh kinakabahan na ako sa next sem. as in pakiramam ko hell sem talaga. haaaaay.

hmmm...random thought..or rather, feeling. hindi ako dapat nageexpect ng kahit ano. ayoko na. hindi dapat. ayokong mafeel ulit ung nafeel ko dati. nakakainis. pakiramdam ko may mali, may iba pero di ko mai-sure. bakit kasi ganitoooo...nakakaasar naman...

basta, bahala na. no expectations. ganun na lang.

reading my last lj entry, naisip ko lang...SUMMER EXTENSION please?

after seeing my CRS results and realizing that this sem would be one of my hell sems...shit, ang saraaaaapp matulog kung kailan ko gustuhin at walang isipin na kung anu pa man! I am so not ready yet to go back to school again...wait! last week nasa school lang ako? oh..damn. haha.

wow, my birthday in 22 days?!?! WOW. haha. :)

My God....I am sooooo BORED. Gusto ko nang magenroll at pumasok...minus the piles of readings.

so far this summer, I've been consistent in working out...though the eating behavior needs to be worked on. haha. angboring kasi eh! kakain na lang para di mabore. I can sleep as long as I want (which is good. as in VERY GOOD. haha). dvd's galore.

the downside? no allowance. nabubulok ka na sa bahay. missing your friends. hindi talaga puwedeng wala akong ginagawa. haha

and what's up with CRS?! taena ang tagal na niyang processing na yan! nakakaimbyerna na!

at please lang, ang laman ng tv ngayon ay panay hayden kho issue. tantanan niyo na! bwiset. sobrang hype, pati mga senador nakikisawsaw palibhasa eleksyon  na next year. Cut the crap TRAPOs!

aaaannnddd..what else..hmm...ayun! okay, naiirita ako sa isang guy na panay porma sa akin kahit may gf na siya. mukha ba akong klase ng babae na papayag sumama makipagdate sa isang lalaking committed na? excuse me! ni hindi ka ganoon kagwapo. tae ka. at kaibigan ko GF mo kaya umayos ka. atsaka...may isa pang nangungulir sa akin na di ko malaman ano nang sasabihin ko sa kanya sa sobrang kulit niya. di ba niya magets?!?! the fact na iniiwasan ko mga tanong niya ibig sabihin I am not interested. PLEASE! kung kayo si...*ano*...eh di OKAY! pero hindi eh. kaya please lang. hmmm..

anyway..so much for summer issues. haha.

HELLO SUMMER!:)

2 weeks lang pero wth?!? i will enjoy every minute of it. hahaha.

FR yesterday in KAPPP at 3B resort in Antipolo. SUPER FUN!:) grabe todo bonding with orgmates and then dinner afterwards at Mang Jimmy's. how fun. welcome new mems Norriz, Trance, Mia and Pam!:) Thank you for making my first handling of the app process as inter head fun, memorable and successful. I love KAPPP! :)

for my first summer day, I:
- woke up super late (bumabawi ng tulog haha)
- cancelled a date (eeeehhh...kasi...hmm...)
- ate brunch and special dinner with my mom and dad :)
- watched Witch Yoo-Hee on dvd (celine! yun yong hiniram ko sayo, maganda siya panoorin mo. hehe)

I swear i am going to enjoy my 2 weeks of vacation! and I will lose pounds before the school year starts. haha.

aaaanndddd...CRS? please be kind to me/us. please!

magra-rant lang ako for the last time this summer.

ang dami daming gagawin! shet. nakakainis. acads tapos org stuff tapos may mga issue issue pa at nilalagnat ako. bakit ganito? summer ah dapat masaya. nakakainis.

grrrrrrr...

sana magbukas na at maging maayos lahat. gusto ko nang matapos summer sem ko at enjoyin ang remaining 2weeks of summer ko.

:(

super stressful and busy week it has been for me. palibhasa Final interview ng applicants kaya gabi na ako halos everyday umuwi ng bahay. syempre gusto ko matapos lahat ng FI nila. ano namang klaseng inter head ako di ba. haha. tas paguwi syempre may acads pa. at super aga kong pumasok dahil tamad akong magcommute. haha. mga less than 12 hours lang ata ako everyday sa bahay. hay. hmm.

anyway, im having fun with my orgmates. as in kappp is family. the same way i fel about them when i was still a freshman. ang saya lang :)

last night, i went out with my orgmates at tomato kick. fun lang. haha. kahit napagalitan ako paguwi at may sakit na ako ngayon ok lang kasi masaya naman. many OMG moments and some first times after how many months circumstances. oh well.

at lumelevel up na ang messages niya ha! as in haller?! jokes are half meant dude. sabihin mo na lang kasi!  haha.

last week of summer class. yey! at sa friday FR and crs results na. my God, crs please be kind to me/us!