rainbows...sunshine...and ♥ skies

Soooo....there's this person I really find interesting right now. Tweeting about him would only cause issues so I'm just blogging about him here. I actually find him really hot and interesting. Plus he's smart and he knows a lot. But if course, he has his flaws. Like medyo kulang siya sa height. Kainis. Plus, he keeps on pushing me away...he's setting me up with someone I do not like. 

It;s weird that I;m blogging about a guy once again. It;s actually weird that I'm writing something else other than my rants about lawschool. Siguro kasiiiii...bihira lang ako ulit makaramdam ng ganito. I find him interesting. And I want to get to know him more. I wonder, if he feels the same way. 

This has been the longest exam series of my life. I still have 1 exam left in my 4-unit subject (Property) on Monday. 2 weeks na akong nageexam anu baaaaa! The suspension of classes and typhoons caused this week to be prolonged. And it is really exhausting. To the point na nakakalungkot at nakakafrustrate when you've been studying every single day and the exams do not give justice to the knowledge you've painstakingly learned. Life is sooo unfair. 

I miss my friends. I miss being free. I miss being able to take good care of myself (eating well, losing weight in the right way and not due to stress and a busy lifestyle, spa, salon services, facial). I miss lazing around. I miss being bored. I miss life. 

Lungkot. Shet. 

2 WEEKS TO MIDTERMSSS!!!!

And it's one hell of a schedule. Everyday we have an exam. Sobrang namiss ko yung petiks sched ng freshman year. Mygod. And I still have backlogs in some subjects. Hindi okay 'to. Tengeneeeeh. 

I SERIOUSLY need an extra day to rest. I have class for 6 days a week. When I go home to Antipolo on Saturday afternoons, I feel guilty to just laze around and rest or watch TV and even spend time with my family instead of studying for my Monday classes. It's a vicious cycle. I HATE ITTTT! I so hate Saturday classes! As I've said before, di bale nang late weekday classes wag lang talaga Saturday class. It robs me of a day of rest and a day with my family and non-lawschool friends. I'm soooo sad na:( SO stressed. 

And I've been losing pounds like crazy! Not that I don't want it but it's a bit unhealthy. Yes, I exercise almost everyday after class but I also get thinner because I literally forget to eat. As in serious! Sa dami ng ginagawa ko and because of our sucky sched, I forget to eat and skip meals most of the time. 2 weeks ago I checked I lost 5pounds since classes started. I think I'm on my way to 10lbs lost for a month and a half of lawschool this year. 

Sorry this is a rant entry. I. AM. JUST. FREAKIN. TIRED. God help me!

But anywaaay, there are a lot of things to be thankful for. Like some good recits and wonderful victories and achievements for my sorority. I just love Regina! I have the best sisses in the world :) Thank God for them because without them, I;d be insane in lawschool! Haha. 

Sophomore year load is woooooorse...way woooorse than freshman load. I began to appreciate how much free time I had during my freshie year. And to think I was always complaining last year of how much I have to read. Load last year to this sem? Wala sa kalingkingan!

It's actually exhausting. Like last Thursday I had a 5-hour class day. STRAIGHT! And I had to study 43 cases for that day for 2 subjects. 5 hours of non-stop recits. Lucky me I wasn't called. But it was an exhausting Wednesday and Thursday to the point that I had to cry. Record breaking, really. 1 month into 2nd yr 1st sem and I already broke down. Seriously, every single day you think of all the things you have to study and you will just eventually  get burnout. 

Sometimes I wonder why I'm still in law school. The level of competition is so high. And I'm not really one of the best ones in the class. Also, it's such a serious study which is very far from my personality. I also receive job offers from different companies these day and in fact I can accept any of them and just work but I choose to be in law school. I guess God thinks I'm destined for this that's why He still makes me stay. And I think as long as I'm here, I'm gonna prove myself to anyone that I'm gonna be a lawyer someday. As cool and bad-ass as the lawyers I see on TV series like The Good Wife. Haha. Well, that's the dream. 

This day was truly special:)

I love this particular birthday because I was able to relax and be at peace, away from the city life and books and just having good food the whole day with the company of my family on a total bed weather in Antipolo :) PLUS, the surprise! I LOVE MY FRIENDS:)  And I love my family. 

Today is going to be a beautiful and stress-free day!:)

I honestly have no plans except that I won't study today. But I am very thankful for the past year. 23 years, I mean wow, 23. This I can say in all honesty and confidence that I have actually matured within the past year. All the challenges definitely had a purpose. And my life is pretty much on track. I have a great family, a solid barkada, a very supportive and fun sisterhood, the most awesome blockmates, a definite career path, a well-balanced life:) And whatever's lacking, I know God will give it tp me soon, if not now. 

Thank you Lord for 23 years! To more years!!:)

2 WEEKS! Panginoon! 2 LINGGO PA LAAAAANG! Pagod na pagod na ako. Nangingiyak na rin ako sa dami ng binabasa ko. SHEEEEETTT. :(

As of the moment, I am having a difficult time packing my lawschool stuff for the condo. Bu tomorrow, I'll be bringing back my stuff which means I'm, once again, going back to the toxic Makati life. Goodbye, summer:( Goodbye, Antipolo :(

I dunno if I'm prepared for this hell of a sem that they say. I still don't have books, to begin with. I still have to do groceries and school supplies shopping. And I practically spent the last days of my vacation lazing around, working out and sleeping! In truth, the last time I opened a book related to law was last March! 2 months of hibernation. What is that. Haha. 

But as with every start of a new schoolyear or sem, I am once again, full of hope. Lord God, please help me. 

Goodluck to me! For the lawyer dream!:)

So as of today, I've officially sealed my fate for another year in lawschool. So all the doubts of the last months are down the drain and everything is back to zero. Optimism level at its highest! I am kinda excited though this sem will be a monster of a sem. As in super hirap daw tipong matibay ka talaga pag di ka nagbreakdown. I'm gonna be needing more prayers, faith in the Lord and in myself. 

Yesterday, Aaron, Gil and I went to ABSCBN for our dream studio tour Showtime watching. But we didn't het what we expected. Turned out to be a really stressful time thinking of ways to get out of HYY. Hahahahaha! But of course, whenever you;re with the best people on earth, everything's still good. Haha. 

Can't believe 2 weeks na lang bakasyon! May30 is just so freakin' unfair! Gotta make the most out of it: Sleep and bum around to the max!

I've been enjoying summer too much I already forgot this journal was still existing. Haha! Can't help it when there's microblogging called Twitter nowadays. But it's true that nothing beats writing in a journal (an online journal in my case). 

For a start, God has spoken and He still wants me to continue my law studies. YES! I don't know what stroke of luck I have but God really helped me pass my exams. I actually passed my majors. I dunno how Fr Bernas passed me in Consti2 but he did. And Atty Sta Maria really made us pass! I;m just so thankful right now. Now, I can finally add Fr B on facebook and ask him to sign my Primer. Haha. But I'm still waiting for my prof in Persons to release our grades. Jusko naman Ma'am! 1st sem pa yon! Please lang, ipasa mo na kaming lahat ang tagal mo na kaming pinaasa sa grades nayan :( Besides, I need higher grades to pull up my QPI. And I promise, next year magtitino na talaga ako. PROMISE! Anywaaaay...Enrollment's on the 12th already and classes start in the 30th...yes, May 30. Jusko. 

So for now, I am ENJOYING every day no matter how boring it is. I love being bored right now. Waking up late, eating brunch. Watching tv/DVDs/series. Kumpletos recados ang panonood ng drama sa gabi. HAHA. Being able to cook again for the family. WORKING OUT! Maaaaahn! Nagbunga na ang 2months na pagpapapayat at pagexercise ko, pumapayat na ulit ako. And I am just happy. Kailangan hot na ako sa pasukan. Hahahaha! I'm able to catch up with most of my friends already. Been able to go to the beach and get a tan (we went to Calatagan, Batangas during Holy Week). And I still have roughly 4 weeks to enjoy my "last bum" summer. Last because next year I'm gonna intern already then next I'm gonna do thesis then after, before I know it, I'll be studying for the bar already. I'm gonna enjoy every bit of this summer. :)